The weekend at Brhama Kumaris was a mind changing and a peaceful experience, I felt I had forgotten all my worries, if fact I felt as if there were no worries. Waking up at 4am in the morning and meditating for 45 minutes was a day changing experience. This gave a natural boost in the day, and a natural boost to my soul as well. After the early morning meditation I got a sleep of approximately 1 hour to 75 minutes, after which I took a bath and reached for the lectures. The lectures spoke about many concepts of God, and self-respect. I believe self-respect is in fact one of the main themes of BK, but that seriously does not mean that one has to produce ego inside him. Self-respect is a much deeper concept than just respect one-self. They say that we are all children of the God, and the He takes care of us, which I cannot ignore, and feel that it is true to some extent, but, doubt dwells in my mind and in my heart, which I cannot get rid of. Besides the concept of self-respect they also talk about the 5 roots of evil, which they identify as Ego, Anger, Lust, Jealousy and Greed/Attachment. I believe that I do not have anger, or may be greed/attachment, or ego, but, I am in a viscous jar of lust, and it is quite difficult for me to get out of that jar. I am drippinng of lust to say in a simple language.One interesting point that I caught twice when I was at BK was to make at least one person happy in a day. This really pierced my heart. But, my room mate who has been in the BK for several years now, produced a counter argument for this. He said, we do not say make someone happy, but what we try to say is that do not give sorrow to others. Interesting. As my trip at the BK center come to end, I come to towards my normal life, same old, same old, rush rush, rush rush. The people again start to piss me off, but I feel different, I feel some energy inside me which makes me tolerate some people. That is what is happening right now inside me.